This week was a tough week for my productivity. My mom was here until Tuesday and we did a lot of sight-seeing and tourist stuff. It was fun and I love having that time with my mom.
The only thing, was that it wore me out and knocked me off my schedule. For the rest of this week I’ve tried to recharge and get motivated. With my energy levels and people levels (wanting/ lack of wanting or needing to socialize/ be around people) all messed up it was hard to much of anything.
I started writing a few times only to either not be able to finish or to be disappointed with what I wrote.
Thankfully, I went to bed early last night and went to Jiu-Jitsu this morning. I’m not 100% back and motivated to do everything I should want to do, but I am writing this post and have ideas about what to write next.
Also, I feel like I can’t be too hard on myself, since I did recently have a real good week when I wrote, Artist: a monologue. I also published a video of me performing it.
One thing I am excited about that should be starting this week is that I am going to be switching my Goal Getters’ videos over to my main YouTube channel. I will be recording a fast alert video, hopefully today for that channel then publishing the steps and tips videos on my main channel later this week. This way I can have all the statics in one place from here on out. Also, I have a few more subscribers on my main channel, so the videos will theoretically get watched a little more.
With that I will leave you with excitement to see what I do in the following weeks. If you are not excited for more things to come at least you can see what I have done. Here is the list.
Okay, so it is not much of a list. Next week’s should be longer.
Now that I have spent most of my day off from work being distracted by the internet and random stuff I think I can sit down and write about my week. I just have to remember what I did this week and what made it a journey towards my dreams.
I did write more than normal and Sunday I spent the day reading about God. Besides that I don’t think anything that interesting happened in my life this week.
I have read more about God and am trying to figure out what would be the best path for me. That seems to be the most important thing in my life now. It is good that I actually ordered my goals right this time. This goal is my number one goal both on paper and actions.
I feel my relationships growing, although I am pretty sure I didn’t say I love you everyday. I still am focusing in on the important relationships in my life and I hope the people in my life can tell.
I have worked on my book for 3 hours since making the 30 hours in 30 days goal. It’s not as far as I feel like I should be, but it is something. In those 3 hours I have also gotten farther than I thought I would.
I just rearranged my last two goals, because I am realizing that my acting and writing career/ passion trumps my physical goals. I do have a plan or experiment to boost my health and fitness, but acting and writing take up a bigger aspect of my thought life. Especially, lately I have been thinking of projects that would help me boost my audience base, income, or both.
One thing that I am working on is getting my visual art or sell-able stuff up on eBay. I also want to make more masks and post those on eBay, also. However, the masks will be after I get my paintings up on eBay. This is mostly because I already have paintings I can sell, while I only actually own one of my masks and it is not for sale.
I guess that’s all I have to say today about my journey. I’m simply taking small steps and coming up with ideas at this point. One day I will be able to run towards my dreams and take giant leaps of faith, but today I am only able to put one foot in front of the other.
The steps I took towards my dreams are as follows:
A Whispered Promise
A Pondering Poem
In This Moment
Weekly Writing Prompts
I seem to be taking steps towards my dreams and end goals. They are just small steps. I started to budget, so that I can save money to further my journey. With budgeting being done with my money I can see how far I have to go with being able to afford what I need to do. An example of what I am talking about is, I am trying to save money to afford an acting coach. I know I need an outsider’s eye to point me to what I need to do. I also want to make sure I actually have art supplies in my budget and that I will be able to give away at least a few books (once I finish it).
With working on my money budget I am realizing I need to do that with my time. I have a limited amount of time during a month, just like I have a limited amount of money. I need to make sure I am using my time wisely, even more than my money I feel like. I noticed a lot this week that although I am not watching television for three months I am still distracting myself and not being productive. Yes, I do need breaks and to relax, but switching from wasting my time on one thing to another does not help anything.
My goals are important to me and time is more important in completing them than money. I am looking up time management apps to help me, well manage my time. Hopefully, distractions will be cut down when I realize how little time I really have.
I am working on my goals. The hardest 2 this week seems to be my physical goal (basically eating healthier and exercising more), and editing ( 30 hours in 30 days). I just can’t seem to find time to exercise, edit or make healthy meals. I am eating healthier and going to BJJ, but I’m not stretching myself.
Still, I can see where I am doing well. I am reading the Bible more, getting more sleep (thanks to no t.v.), saying ‘I love you,’ more, having more conversation, and looking towards my future in acting and writing. I am doing things, but I can always see room to improve.
I always am looking on ways to improve and usually hard on myself, but that’s just who I am.
I will end this post on a good note. I was able to write 3 things this week. Here they are.
Can I Meet Fantasy?
Weekly Writing Prompt
It seems like this week I came up with so many different ways that I could help boost my DreamWard Bound journey.
One you may have seen or read. It was a monologue from a character in my book. I did it in hopes that if more people know about the characters while I work on the book, when it is finished more people will be interested in reading it. At one point I will even share a portion of a chapter.
I am also thinking about turning DreamWard Bound posts into a book. I think my journey is interesting and I like the poetry and stories that help tell my journey. I am not in a place where there is an end to that book yet. I still will have to wait on something happening. Yet, when it does I want to be ready and have that boost me towards my end goals and dreams.
Another book idea or writing project I have is turning my 3 month challenge of no television into a book. I’m not sure if it will be just a kindle size or if it will be long enough for a real book. I am just starting on that journey and study. So far I have journaled my thoughts and study notes. I think I’m interesting enough for people to read that journey. At least I am interesting to me.
On another note I am starting to find myself picking apart the different aspects of the music I listen to. If this continues I may start a new hobby (creating music). I always need more hobbies and things to do. It would be another way for people to hear about me. However, it is not part of my end goal and I have never really been a musical person, so I am trying to just let that be. I already am stretched thin with my time.
I am working on my goals with the time I do have as I am thinking of new ways to boost me towards my end goals. I haven’t watched televisions, except when I was over a friend’s house for dinner. I believe I have said I love some one every day. I am pretty sure I’ve said it to multiple people. I am at least conscious of my health, but have been lacking on actually eating healthier and working out on days I can’t go to BJJ. Editing is also going slow, but I do plan to edit a bunch today. I have writing my monologue for this week and after I write four, I will pick one to perform and post on YouTube.
To end this post I will leave you with my list of things I posted this week, like I normally do.
A Beauty and A Beast
Weekly Writing Prompt
This week was a little crazy and all over the place. From Saturday to Tuesday evening I was basically imprisoned in my home, since my car would not start and, besides a wonderful friend who drove me to Church, I did not have another form of transportation. Truth be told most of the time I did not mind the imprisonment. I got a few things done around the house that I needed to get done and was able to edit my novel a bit. I also binge watched Once Upon A Time, so that was fun.
I started to revise my goals this week, but got as far as first goal. This was basically just giving a new dead line for my 2nd draft of my novel and giving a different reward. I was going to do it Tuesday since I took the day off because I was going to have to pick up my car from the shop, but I kept thinking that I didn’t have time to really focus on my goals. I could be able to pick up my car at any point in the day. It wasn’t until evening that I actually did pick up the car, so basically wasted a perfectly good day not doing anything.
Once I got my car back I was able to go back to work and then Jiu-Jitsu class on Wednesday, which made it feel like a Monday. On Thursday I could not stay still at work; this made the day really hard. I then went to a leadership meeting for my improv group and we decided when which weeks I would be leading. I’m excited to step up and be more involved, even though I have no time as it is.
Friday came a lot slower than I thought it should, but it came and I went to a friend’s kid’s talent show.
Saturday was the 6 year anniversary of arriving in California the first time I moved here. My friends and I call it our Californiverrasary. The four of us hung out for most of the day and reminisced about the last 6 years. We discussed memories of the beginnings of building our new California life. We had a conversation about what was the most surprising thing to happen to us. We also talked about where we see ourselves in the next six years. It was great to talk and spend time with just the original ‘Eastcoasters,’ even though I love the spouses and other additions to the group. The four of us have a special relationship and it seemed almost needed to be reminded of that, by stepping away from all of our other loved ones.
Saturday also got me thinking about my life, past and future. That could be a whole other post though, so instead of going off on that tantrum I will leave you with the link to the only post I published this week.
Weekly Writing Prompt
Although I typically try to write these on Saturdays, I had no motivation to do anything yesterday. I also did not feel like I was dreamward bound. I basically was a Debby downer for myself and the worst part is that I gave into it. I gave into the lack of energy, lack of motivation, and lack of belief in myself.
It is a good thing that today is a new day. Today I am focusing on the fact that I live among people who love me and support me. I actually did a bunch of creative things this week and did editing work on my novel.
I am over due to revise my goals, which may be the reason for the feeling that I am not heading towards my dreams and my dream life. I am happy with my life for the most part, I just know that it could be better in some areas. More and more I realize one area that could improve is my work life. I would love to just write, paint, and act all day long. I am a far way off from that life though. I just need to keep working on my artistic skills and be open to share my art with the world. One day I will be living my dream life and when that day comes all this struggling getting there will be worth it.
Reviewing and revising my goals will be helpful in that it will remind me of my dreams and where I actually want to be in my life. Revising my goals is something to do after I publish this post, though.
I mean I don’t have much else to say, except this week felt a little crazy. It was all work and being a busy bee type of things. Nothing too interesting in the details of the week.
I guess I can finish this post and go revise the goals. I will leave you with the list of things I did this week.
Asking a question and then ramblings about Love (A Vlog )
Telling My Dream
Where I write
Friendship (A Poem)
Weekly Writing Prompt
The inspiration for this post comes from my weekly writing prompt series. The prompt is ‘Write a poem or short story with the sentence, “I didn’t want to tell my dreams to someone new.” ‘
I didn’t want to tell my dreams to someone new.
I wanted you to be the only one who knew.
But like a bird away you flew.
Leaving alone to see you in a new hue.
No, I didn’t even want to tell you my dream.
I wanted it to be my scheme,
but you pushed saying we will be a team.
Yet, you still left before the sun even shared a beam.
This has been a week of thought it seems. I’ve been in my head trying to figure out a few things. One of the things that have been on my mind lately is my time. Mainly I need to figure out how to get more time out of my day.
This week besides trying to get more time out of my days I also worked on my novel. I realized quickly that chapter 1 was a solid chapter, but chapter 2 was a rambling mess. Most of my week’s editing time was spent marking sections to be taken out and figuring out where/ how I can split it into 2 chapters. Since I was able to split chapter 2 into 2 chapters I am now on chapter 4.
There wasn’t much update worthy things that happened this week, besides the two mentioned above. Mostly because it at least seemed like this week was a lot of random activities and events. I was also on a different schedule at work, due to the role I was in.
The only writing post I did was my weekly writing prompt which you can read if you follow the link. Hopefully I will have more for you to read next week.
I figure writing my weekly update post is better late than not doing one. I will make it quick though, since I actually already did write this week’s post. My computer just decided that the internet wasn’t its friend though and for some reason would not save the post. It could also be the site, but more likely my computer, since its old and filled up with a bunch of different projects.
I did awesome with my God goal and listened to at least an hour of an audiobook about God centered things every day this week. I also did pretty well with my weight/ fitness goal. I realized that I’m starting to see definition and I have lost 5 lbs since starting to actually weigh myself and try.
I didn’t do so great with editing my novel, since I was planning on doing that yesterday. Instead though I got the pleasure of staying in bed with a killer headache. Basically my Saturday was me waking up at 8 drinking a bunch of water, having breakfast and going to class with a slight headache. The Friday night ratio of whiskey to water may have been a bit off, since I had whiskey but no water the entire night of dancing. I thought I would be fine but after a full Brazilian Jit-Jitsu class I was not feeling well at all. I went home, showered, and went back to bed. I slept most of the day and then went out to a birthday dinner. Needless to say I did not get any editing done this weekend.
I would have worked on writing or editing today, but I had another birthday party to go to after Church today. This week I should be able to write and edit. I look forward to at least one night this week sitting down working on things. I did fix my break light this weekend, so I was productive. It’s not as productive as I usually am, but that break light has been out for months.
Now, I will leave you with the two things I posted this week. This next week should be more. At least I hope this next week I will post more.
Weekly Writing Prompt
This week was a good week. I posted a few extra poems this week and wasn’t too stressed at work. I also planned out my normal weeks today. I am slowly getting back on track with being productive. I am also going to sit down, either today or tomorrow, and look at my goals. I need to take time to actually look at my goals and decide how I what I want my goals to be. Time is a resource that I am lacking these days.
On another note, I am seeing improvements with my Brazilian Jiu Jitsu skills. This is funny to say, since I am a white belt, which means I have every little skills. Yet, I am improving. I can do things I haven’t been able to do and learning how to move my body and my partners body in order to get submissions or escapes. I know I’m still far from my blue belt, but it’s a journey and I can seeing the steps I’m taking moving me towards the first goals.
That is really all I have to say about my week. I did not do anything too excited, so I will leave you with my list of things I wrote.
Pairs Of Two
A Needed Poem
Weekly Writing Prompt