I needed a vacation,
so I took a walk.
When needed a nap
I sat by the ocean,
and when I needed to feel love
I watched the sunset.
You see I don’t need much
just the ocean breeze,
a warm bed to lay my head
and the beach to remind me of my home.
DreamWard Bound, sort of.
This week was full of work and being stressed out. I still found time to do some extra writing. I posted one poem and have two more to post this week. It was a long week though and I’m not even sure what I did. I just know that it felt never-ending and the days blurred together.
Since my week was so focused on work I don’t have much to say about my progress towards my goals and dreams. It feels like my future is taking a back seat to my present surrounds. I want to sit down and figure out how to be more focused on my future, but that takes time. We’ll see when I can actually get back on my dream track.
Until I do here is what I’ve posted this last week.
Weekly Writing Prompt(#7)
Contrasting Human (Poetry)
Can We Just Say (Poetry)
Dream’s journey to Reality
A Contrasting Human (Poetry)
My weakness is a valley
to the great hills of my strength.
My sadness and despair is the darkness
where the light of my happiness shines.
My naivety and optimism
contrasts my intelligence and planning.
I hope and worry.
I am confident after I am shy.
I am one coin with multiple sides.
I am human.
So I will push you forward
while I pull myself back
then I’ll push on forward
perhaps wanting to curl up in a cave
but never giving up,
because in my weakness I find strength
and I am intelligent enough to be optimistic in my planning.
The world is filled with both negatives and positives.
I focus on the positives
although I see the negatives.
Half way to 100 days
I finished another page of my log for my 100 day challenge, so it’s time for the list of things I thought about while, after or during my workouts.
It’s numbering starts at 1 but really it’s day 27.
- Sometimes seeing the tally marks is the only thing to make you/ me to do another day.
- If someone, even yourself, says you can’t tell them/ you that you can or show them.
- Today I didn’t really know why I was doing my challenge, but that did not stop me from doing it.
- Today fun was brought, along with struggle, learning, fighting and sore body. I’m smiling. (It was a class day.)
- Forgot to mark I guess I wasn’t thinking only doing.
- It’s midnight, I’m not going to be smart. Do it. IT’s easier once it’s a habit.
- Another midnight workout. Tired but smiling. I did stuff today. Improv, site and workout.
- Not related, but still what I was thinking. Beauty is in the heart and soul not body. New tonight I actually do a sit up fully.
- Sometimes you learn from what other people do. I’m smiling. (It was a class day.)
- My knee is hurting so I changed things up and did extra of what I could. I didn’t let pain win, I adapted.
- Ow, everything hurts, but that doesn’t mean I’m quitting gotta keep fighting on. (It was a class day.)
- If I feel my muscles they are solid and great. I’m sore but strong.
- I wanted to go for a walk today as if my brain is changing.
- I realized today I’m working on being the dream girl for my dream guy which some how means I can’t live in a dream world. (I actually wrote a post about this.)
- 42% done. (I was a day off). I’m feeling awesome about working out when I wanted to sleep.
- Friends make things better. Also experiencing different things. (It was a class day.)
- A workout routine or goal routine gets better with momentum so once you start don’t stop.
- It always is great when people can see the results of your efforts. (It was a class day.)
- Just looking and knowing your progress/ journey helps.
- No one really knows where you started only results and what you share.
- Just doing what you set out for means something.
- I want to be where I want to be but I know once I get there I’ll want to be somewhere else.
- Halfway there baby! And almost didn’t even mark it. (Again a day early)
- I feel like I had an accomplished day, which I haven’t felt like in a while. It made me want to do more.
- Make sure you’re smiling more than you are frowning.
- Schedule, plan and remember your goals during the day.
- I’m tougher and stronger than I give myself credit for and you most likely are the same.
DreamWard Bound, Still.
I did not fall off the face of the planet or get kidnapped by aliens. Nothing drastic or dramatic has happened to me. I did not even go on a spontaneous vacation. I simply was drained of energy when I had time to write this week and at the end of last week.
I did jot down thoughts and notes, which I will be completing today, hopefully. They just did not make it to completion or to being published, yet. A main reason for writing and not publishing, besides the time and being drained thing, is that I just did not want to fight with my computer or any computer. I love simply writing with a pen and paper more than with typing when I have things I need to figure out. This week seemed to be either figure out stuff or don’t think. Those were my two options this week.
That being said, I don’t have too much else to say, at least not in this post. I could go on and tell you how Otis (the cat that lives in my house) tried to trap me in my bed or that I wore two different shoes the day after. Those deserve their own post though. I wouldn’t want to go off on that tantrum.
I also have a realization post and a pleading poem. I will be sharing both this week, but the poem will be hard for me. I typically try to hold off on certain types of poems before I Â publish them. This time I just want to be brave and show my heart how it is now.
So, stay tune there will be more writings this week.
DreamWard Bound From A Packed Week
This week was a packed week for me. I of course worked at my day job every day, but I was on a role that I enjoy. After work on Monday I went to my BJJ class, which was great. I even stayed for a little while after class, since it was an open mat time.
Tuesday I went to a Bible study and Wednesday I spent the night with friends.
Where it gets kind of crazy is Thursday. Not only did I work and go to my improv group, I also led the group and worked on this site. I wound up finishing my painting portfolio.
Friday I went to a show and took pictures and video.
Today (Saturday) I had class and took a nap, so it wasn’t that busy. I guess when I write it all out I didn’t do too much. It just felt like the week was packed because I did not have a single night to myself.
I also did write at some point during the week. Here is the short list of things I wrote this week.
Writing Prompt #5
A Quarter Of The Way To 100
A while back I gave myself a challenge and it was a few days, maybe a week or so before I actually accepted the challenge but I did. I mentioned in the post where I shared the challenge that I was going to be keeping a log about the journey this challenge would be. I wasn’t sure at the time how I was going to do it. I just knew that I wanted to be able to share real thoughts that I had through this process. This was to both share with people about my journey and goal achieving, but also to help me. I wanted to motivate myself to keep on doing this challenge.
I decided when I started to actually do the short work out that I would keep track on a piece of paper tapped to my bathroom mirror. I also tapped a page above that and with each tally mark I wrote one line. Some days I squeezed in as much as I could others I just wrote 3 large words. I want to share that log with you now.
- It does not matter when you start, just that you start.
- Starting is the hardest and scariest part of the journey but needed. (I also wrote see twitter for 2.2.15, which says, “One day I will be able to submit someone in a fight, today is not that day, but it was a learning day closer”)
- Change, goals, and dreams don’t happen overnight, work towards them day after day.
- Convincing yourself you’re worth the work is work but worth it.
- Little by little and step by step is what it takes to see massive changes.
- By pushing yourself to do something you don’t think you can do you may find out you can.
- Fighting for tomorrow mean giving up you’re today. Also there is 2 parts of you the cannot and the can learn how to make the can side win. (That was after a 2 am workout, because I stayed out late with my friends)
- If you know how you learn, you will learn more. (This was a class day.)
- Working for what you want will pay off if you are constant.
- You know you’ve found your thing when the pain is worth it. (This was followed by a side note of  “yay, chokes. :-)”)
- Sometimes you just need to take way the options, make your step towards success mandatory.
- Starting is the worst, it’s hard and sucks, but shows you what you can do. Stick with it. You got this.
- I may be tired; I may not be clever, but I am doing what I set out to do.
- Your goals should be fun, educational and worth the pain. (This was another class day.)
- Making a goal a need makes it easier to do, even if it’s by force.
- Friends should make the goals easier. (This should be a class day note.)
- It’s getting easier.
- You know you’re doing something different and hard when you start to question seeming random choices in your life.
- I guess some days you just do and not learn.Doing is valuable too
- Some days you just have to make time. It’s worth it.
- Pushing yourself forward is just walking on a path or journey towards your goals. (This was a class day, also.)
- You can do anything as long as you work for it.
- People will notice your efforts. Keep on to show yourself your efforts. (This was a class day, I Â know because people are starting to see my efforts in class. I don’t yet see my improvements, though. I still feel like a newbie who knows nothing.)
- Strength is worked at not given.
- You can still work even if you are tired. It will be more of an accomplishment.
- Sometimes realizing it’s the last part of the day makes the rest worth it.
You can see some days I was stereotypical in my motivation, other days it was more aimed towards keeping track of my main thought. I hope you enjoyed it and let me know what you think.